wow, it's been a super 24hrs for me (when i write this), first i got an excellent grade for my performance review from the managers at where i am working, was told to keep it at the same level where i am for the next 3 months and i'll get pay rise. considering the rate where i'm at now, it's pretty damn low compared to my mates who work elsewhere. also, there was a crew meeting today and everyone's got pay rise very soon. isn't that sweet! and unexpectedly i was the rookie of year 2003 (?!!), unexpected because i have been working only for 3 months here and, rookie of the year??? this is insane! but wicked!! cos it's what i'm doing now, trying to do my best in everything that i do! heheheh. hmm.... too bad, some of the managers are leaving soon, it's hard to accept that they're leaving cos they're the people who taught me most. best of luck to them.... hmm.... two free tickets to the movies, a badge, a cert,.... not bad aye?

Happy chinese new year to everybody. Haven’t been here for a week now. I guess I’ve got to update something about myself lately. Yeah, life hasn’t been that happening. Apart from my birthday which was on 14th and done nothing much, there has been the same routine. Being alone at home keeps me doing heaps of thinking. The past few months had not been the best of times I’ve had in this new place I’m in, but I reckon the worst is over, and the best is yet to come. With the new year (Chinese new year) started just less than an hour ago, I hope to renew the faith inside me.
Oh, I’d like to thank the friends and pals who have remembered my birthday! Mum, dad, sister, Tomato, Kyoko, Shawn -- my best friend in UK (who called me from Malaysia just after he arrives for CNY celebration),Felix, Wooping, Leowkt, Hailoon, Mabel, Huisan, JL, Angeline Peitse, Fooiling, Grace for the card, Ran, also especially to Elizabeth for the lovely saxophone clock, Amelia Chen for the super cool and scary soft toy! I ain’t a kiddo anymore but it’s lovely to receive these gifts and the most important thing is u guys still remember it. I didn’t do much on my birthday as I always think it’s just another day. Wishes? Yeah, health. It’s more important than anything else!
Tell me, is it hard to get someone who could be involved in a relationship with you? It is not. The question is how you are going to maintain it. I have experienced it, and I know it. It’s not a journal I’m publishing here, but simply something that I have to tell all of you. I’m not perfect. I’m trying to be fair. I’m a simple guy with a simple life. There’s not much I’m asking for, and not much you could ask from me either. I’m single and I think I will be for some time, cos I am very much used to it. It’s been a year. And I don’t think I’ll change it, for now. Can you get me?
sorry i've been too carried away with my thoughts..... Happy new year to everyone especially to mum, dad, sister, and my grandma's who are celebrating it in malaysia. i miss celebrating it in malaysia when i get to see all my relatives there. maybe in 2006 i'll be back! :) last but not least, my cousin and her family in auckland: happy cny!
currently listening to : Jay - Wu Ding

daily routine: work, eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep... this house has become very quiet, so quiet i could do a lot of thinking all the time. my parents and my sister have left on christmas eve and since then the house couldn't be more dead, it's true when i turn off the pc at nite, even the ticking sound of my tiny clock seems to march itself into my already tired and disturbed mind. now, what i do for each day would have to be work as much as i can, since there's nothing much to do at home, apart from house cleaning during weekends and that takes half a day's time compared to a few hours when my sister was here. in the space of 3 weeks, so much has changed. if there's a mood graph, my graph would be a pretty messy one. sitting in front of the pc wouldn't help, i need a break.