Sigh, it’s raining out there. No camp for the day. At quarter to six I forced myself up from the warmth of my bed to wait for a call from Raiyo. Yeah, it’s cancelled. I wish it’s not cancelled, as there are more things to do next week. Have two weeks off and starting next Friday I’ll be working again. Hmm, I don’t know how I’m going to wake up the following morning? Been away from my own site for a while now, as a matter of fact I don’t know what to write, or maybe I’m a bit slack. There’s a lot of thinking that I’ve done for the past few weeks, I should have posted my thoughts online, but my fingers just couldn’t bother to work. Looking back at my blogs, I am no more a frequent blogger as I only post an average of one per month! Damn, I have sometimes thought of closing down the site but it’s really such a waste considering the amount of days I spent on setting up the whole thing. So much has happened since my last blog, but I can’t remember the details. I would have been able to recall what has happened on a particular day if I had used my camera as my diary, but nowadays the camera has not really been in action. Well, just to sum it all up, I have gone through low points and high points at the same time. I have been indecisive. I have been very decisive as well. All the confusions and choices have made me age. If you can see me in person, strands of grey hair are so visible you can see them ten feet away. I like to grumble about myself. Why didn’t I do this or that? It would have been a better outcome if I had done this or that. This is life, don’t complain too much. If you have made a choice, stick with it and make the best out of it. My life so far is getting better and better. It’s a busy day every day, even on weekends. New term has started. I’m doing a new course now and it’s pretty amazing considering the friends I’ve known for just a days yet it’s like I’ve known them for months! I am not a loner type of person. So this course so far pretty much tells me that I can’t live alone. Life is too short to be pissed off with all the things all the time. You’re not alone, the world doesn’t revolve around you, and you’re not God. We’re all humans, live like one. Don’t overload yourself. Learn to take time off and see what has happened so far around you. I’m sure you’ll appreciate the beauty of things and people around.
Since my last blog, my house has been through a bit of a change in terms of occupancy. My uncle and his two kids, Elaine and Leon came back after the Chinese New Year celebration, and stayed here for about two weeks before shifting to their new house. My dad and my sister Carolyn came back too a few days after that. The house at one time had six occupants compared to the summer times when there’s hardly a cubic inch of air moving in the living room and upstairs. Then, after my uncle, two kids, my dad have left; the house became so quiet again. Since there are only Carolyn and me at home nowadays, the house is just a motel. It should be a good thing, considering only less space to clean up, but the garden outside our house is a mess! For the past few days I have tried to do some clearing up of the garden. The messes caused by the plants made me wonder why the hell the previous owner was so into planting and not knowing that there is always a limit to the space given to any plant. I was so frustrated that at one stage I actually murdered the plants regardless of what species they were. I even told mum that it’s a relief to see a garden with no plants at all rather than a forest with random little trees at random places. Don’t think I’m crazy, because you’ll be shocked to see the plants in my garden. They are so fxxxed up, no doubt about it.
Sometimes I wonder if life is as simple as a garden with only a few plants of my preference, wouldn’t it be nice?
Picture attached is a photo of sunrise at Sumner taken on my birthday.
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