hmm.... after a few weeks of absence from this site, i still couldn't find the reason to write anything here anymore. i have a lot of stuff in my mind, i just don't feel like writing them out here nowadays. a few friends who just visited my site for the first time told me that it's a good thing to write something and share it with others. some other friends wondered why ppl like me, i mean like us bloggers bother to blog??? i guess that's that's why we're called bloggers... duh.. nah, i think i should just called myself a moody blogger, or an occasional blogger... or ... lazy blogger? i wanna add some new things to my site, i just couldn't find the time, now u must be wondering why am i still here blogging instead of doing some serious stuff... well, there's a whole lotta reasons behind the fact that i'm not being able to update my site in an efficient way considering the limited service offered by my host... you see, this site is up for more than a year now, and not a single soul nowadays would bother to view it, considering my mates in uk have graduated and bear in mind that i'm new here in this kiwi land, these reasons are enough to tell u that my past regular visitors have vanished in thin air! without any trace at all... it's hard to maintain a site. if i am given the time and equipment and money, i'd make this a success... too bad, time is never enough... speaking of time, this makes me wanna spit out what's on my mind now... if you don't remember or can't remember what i'm doing now, let me refresh you... i'm doing Post Grad in Civil Engineering in University of Canterbury in this 'barren land' of Kiwis.. basically i could finish it within 12 months, that includes 6 papers and a project, now i think that doing 3 papers in one semester (two semester = 1 year = 6 papers) is too much for me... all the while i thought that I am doing a thesis with a maximum of 4 papers finishing within 18 months, now it's not good.. the worse is that i could not drop one of the papers that i'm doing which is way way beyond my scope. I wonder if all this was a mistake after all... when i was so confident in doing this paper at the first place??? god help me...