6 hrs after my sleep. Awake. 7am. what am i doing now? it's christmas holiday. Annual holiday (forced? 'compulsory' is a less controversial term). I should be relaxing now instead of waking up at 7am. why? trying slowly to get back to working day habits by waking up earlier and earlier. normally i'd get up at half six to beat the morning peak traffic to work.

(at least the driving force today is united up against gunners. live. at 9am)

am i paranoid? '5 more days to go before i resume work...' i say to myself. do the math.