I am normal. I don’t have eight arms and eight legs. I am no superman. Why are you so harsh on me? Have I not done enough to gain your respect and appreciation? We are all living in a community regardless of our origin. There are issues which some people just could not have the capacity to handle. Why the fuck do you care? I live my own life. I live it to the fullest. I would like to learn more and contribute more to gain recognition, not from you, but from myself. I know my own capability, I know my limits, I know I am not only the person you see me now. In fact, you can see more of me, you can see more of my capabilities. How the fuck can you actually see more of me? What I need from you is a chance to accept me. “Give me an excavator and I’ll dig a hole bigger than you could ever imagine.” “Give me the resource and I’ll make more money for you.” Just. One chance.Life lately has been quite hectic. So far, I have 4 major assignments. I guess there will be one more next week before the break starts after that. Have I started? Not really. It’s not I couldn’t be bothered to start. It’s just a lot of shits have piled up and I just wonder how the fuck I’m supposed to start doing, not to mention finishing, them one by one. My project has not been confirmed. More work is to be done to get the director’s approval. Well, I could have stopped looking for one and later get one from him but, fuck it, am I really such a slack ass to just sit there and be spoon fed for every little fuckin bit of help? My future lies in my hands. It’s just, I need to sort out my things one by one. Just like what the interviewer at MWH asked me: what is your weakness? I know by heart, I tried to do everything at the same time. And I don’t want this to happen again and screw up this year. This year is one fuckin important year, and I want to work hard and get the most out of it. I want to contribute, towards a better outcome, towards a better me. I want to gain recognition. From myself.currently listening to: Seether feat. Amy Lee – Broken